Ever since Sonia Sotomayor was appointed to the Supreme Court in 2009, people have been as curious about her personal story as her views on the law and the courts. Children with diabetes want to know about her experiences living with the disease. Others ask how she coped with losing her father at a young age. Minority students wonder whether she has experienced discrimination and how she stays connected to her community. In a new memoir titled “My Beloved World,” Sotomayor describes how adversity has spurred her on instead of knocking her down. Diane talks with Justice Sotomayor about the sources of her hope and optimism, and the value of holding on to far-fetched dreams.

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  • 10:06:55

    MS. DIANE REHMThanks for joining us. I'm Diane Rehm. In 2009, Sonia Sotomayor became the first Hispanic and third woman appointed to U.S. Supreme Court. In a new memoir, she tells the story of her early life with the candor and intimacy unusual for a sitting justice. She writes about growing up in the Bronx housing project, her father's alcoholism, her diabetes and her struggles as a minority student. The title of her memoir is "My Beloved World."

  • 10:07:33

    MS. DIANE REHMAnd Supreme Court Justice Sonia Sotomayor joins us from a studio at WBEZ in Chicago. I invite you to be part of the conversation. Call us on 800-433-8850. Send us your email to drshow@wamu.org. Follow us on Facebook or send us a tweet. Good morning to you, Madam Justice. I'm honored to have you with us.

  • 10:08:05

    JUSTICE SONIA SOTOMAYORGood morning. And thank you for having me.

  • 10:08:07

    REHMMy pleasure. Madam Justice, I am so glad you wrote this book because seems to me that too many of us forget that Supreme Court justices sitting up on that bench are human beings first and foremost.

  • 10:08:31

    SOTOMAYORYou hit right on the head one of the main reasons I wrote this book. I wanted everyone who read it to actually identify with some life experience I've had or with some feeling that I've described. I've tried to be as honest about my emotions and what's occurred to me as I humanly could be, good and bad, successes and failures. And the book was an attempt to reach out to people and show them, yes, I am just like they are.

  • 10:09:07

    REHMDo you think that there were any, perhaps even on the Court, who might have thought she's gone too far?

  • 10:09:21

    SOTOMAYORI don't know. I have the trust that I've built a sufficient relationship with my colleagues that they will see this in the way that I gave it to the world as an attempt by me to be open with them. And as you'll learn from the book, I am a little bit of an eternal optimist...

  • 10:09:42

    REHMYeah.

  • 10:09:43

    SOTOMAYOR...a realist. There's no way that I overlooked the limitations of others. I try always, however, to have a balance view, to see their strengths with their limits at the same time. And I hope that it'll be an invitation to my colleagues who have become friends to be equally open with me. I've been so deeply touched by the letters and emails that I've been receiving since the book has been published, some by my friends who I have known for years and years and years who had never told me something personal about themselves. It's a wonderful experience...

  • 10:10:25

    REHMYes.

  • 10:10:25

    SOTOMAYOR...and so deeply touching.

  • 10:10:28

    REHMTell us first about your mother. She had a most interesting background of her own, and you really didn't learn about that until later.

  • 10:10:43

    SOTOMAYORNo. My absolutely favorite chapter in this entire book is chapter seven, and I encourage people not to skip the chapters beforehand...

  • 10:10:54

    SOTOMAYOR...because they put chapter seven in an important context, and that context is that, because of my dad's alcoholism, I really had never known them to be happy together. And all of a sudden, I go about writing this book, and I finally sit down and have a conversation with my mother in which I asked questions that I never thought of asking before. Did you love him? I had never seen a kind moment between them that I remembered as a child, and the answers she gave me were so enlightening.

  • 10:11:33

    SOTOMAYORI found the father I never knew and a love affair between them that I had never heard about. But more importantly, I finally was able to come to the end of a long journey with my mom in us finding out more about each other. After my mom read this book, Diane, you know, I called her up and I said, I want honesty from you. How did you feel? And she responded, you know something? I didn't know you had done half the things I read about in that book.

  • 10:12:06

    REHMOh, that's wonderful. But you know what's even more wonderful is that most of us, many of us, I should say, never had that opportunity or never take advantage of the opportunity of trying to find out truly who our parents are.

  • 10:12:31

    SOTOMAYORThat's so true. And one of the things that I talk about with people now is if you have a living parent, if you're lucky enough to have one or grandparent or aunt or uncle, anyone who's older than you and knows your family history, take the time to sit down and to really talk to them. You know, I go to a lot of Sunday dinners where there are parents or grandparents.

  • 10:12:59

    SOTOMAYORAnd as soon as one of them starts telling a story, my friend will walk out of the room with a raised eyebrow like, I've heard that a million times, you know. I think we all do that. You sort of hear the same story over and over again, and you stop listening. Or you never think of doing something as simple as saying, when that happened, how did you feel?

  • 10:13:24

    REHMExactly.

  • 10:13:26

    SOTOMAYORNot what the story was, but what were you feeling inside of you?

  • 10:13:30

    REHMI'm interested. You've already mentioned that your father was an alcoholic. What about his background? What do you think lead him into that heavy drinking and that relationship with your mother that you witnessed?

  • 10:13:55

    SOTOMAYORDad was very, very intelligent. My mother fell in love with him, which I discovered later, because he was the first person she met who read as much as she did. And he only had a sixth-grade education, yet he had a great, great facility with math. Although he died when I was in fourth grade, he would occasionally help me with my math homework. And he taught me shortcuts on multiplication and addition that I still remember to this day. I can multiply by 11 any set of numbers.

  • 10:14:34

    SOTOMAYORBut I think that intelligence in a place that was so poor like Puerto Rico, where he was born, the need to earn money to support -- to help support a family, because his own dad had died when he was 9 years old, I think all of that frustrated his potential. My mom told me -- and this I discovered in writing this book and talking with her -- that he was highly creative. He was an artist. He apparently worked for a mannequin factory and helped make the faces and bodies of the mannequins.

  • 10:15:17

    SOTOMAYORIn fact, one of my favorite stories is mom describing how he made a mannequin of her head and how strange she felt seeing herself through his eyes. And that was a very, very touching moment in her description to me. But I think he was or had become a lost soul, someone whose potential was never given a way to show itself.

  • 10:15:48

    REHMHow did he earn a living?

  • 10:15:52

    SOTOMAYORWell, he -- I understand the last job he had when he left Puerto Rico was in a button factory that used to make buttons from the seashells that were left on the sands of Puerto Rico. I don't know exactly whether the factory closed, but I think that's what my family understood because the whole family, many of whom were working in the factory at the time, that's when they started to migrate to New York City. When he came here, I understand, he started at the mannequin factory, and at some point it closed.

  • 10:16:28

    SOTOMAYORI thought, for the longest time, that he worked in a tool and die factory because that's what one of my cousins had told me when I was younger. In writing the book, I learned it was probably a radiator company in which he might have made tools, but it was a -- he was a factory worker. And the drinking, as mom said to me, you know, at that time, everybody drank. And the family, as you'll learn from the book, loved to have a party. Yes, he drank a lot, but who knew what a lot was back then?

  • 10:17:06

    SOTOMAYORI've been asked why he never got treatment for his alcoholism, and my answer is it wasn't an age where people thought of it as a problem. You know, some drank more than others. My father apparently always drank more than others. But it got worse with time. And after my birth, it was pretty bad.

  • 10:17:27

    REHMAnd you describe yourself as a difficult baby and toddler. What do you mean by that?

  • 10:17:37

    SOTOMAYORI was full of energy. Well, mom will tell you that I had colic. And they -- my father and my cousin, who I describe in the book, Alfred, would spend hours walking me around trying to calm me. She then says that at age seven months, I went from not even crawling. I just one day got up, and I ran. And I never stopped running. I was very, very curious. I was the one always getting my cousins into trouble. I was the mischief maker. If something went wrong, the first question was, Sonia, what did you do?

  • 10:18:21

    REHMAnd...

  • 10:18:22

    SOTOMAYORIn fact, when my cousin and I were much older and she had a child and her child was misbehaving a little bit, my cousin Miriam looked at her daughter and said, Karen, you're just as bad as Sonia was when she was little. And that's how bad I was.

  • 10:18:41

    REHMSupreme Court Justice Sonia Sotomayor. Her new book, a memoir, is titled "My Beloved World."

  • 10:20:05

    REHMAnd welcome back. Supreme Court Justice Sonia Sotomayor is with me. We're talking about her brand new memoir titled "My Beloved World." And before the break, we were talking about her father's alcoholism. As you may have heard, her father died when she was in the fourth grade. And, Madam Justice, you said that your mother went into such grief that it was almost impossible for you to deal with what happened until you finally somehow got her attention. What happened?

  • 10:21:02

    SOTOMAYORI thought, again, until the conversation with my mom about this book, that my mom had gone into some form of depression. Obviously, I was a kid, so I had no idea what clinically depression meant. But the pop psychology of a child, of a Lucy at 5 cents, I thought that there was some sort of guilt-induced depression because all they had done was fight.

  • 10:21:31

    SOTOMAYORAnd so when he died and she couldn't stop crying, and she was so depressed that we would get home from school, she'd cook us dinner with hardly saying a word and then lock herself in her bedroom each night, I just couldn't understand that sadness. And I watched it for weeks and weeks on end. My escape, maybe my life salvation was that I found books. And I found a way to escape the misery around me by reading. It became my rocket ship out of the sadness that I was in. And it opened an entire world to me.

  • 10:22:21

    SOTOMAYORI tell kids now that I hope that the Internet, as important as it is, as great a learning tool as it can be, that they don't lose the love of words, of the way words can create images in your mind and promote creativity in yourself because it makes you paint pictures in your head. And, in fact, one of the things I try to do in this book, Diane, is to use words to create images that I lived with. And I think in the ways that so many people have responded that I might have succeed a little bit in that.

  • 10:23:02

    REHMI think so.

  • 10:23:04

    SOTOMAYORBut, you know, I watched mom -- I didn't watch mom. I didn't see mom. There was no music in the house. Living in that kind of quietness, you can go a little stir-crazy. And one night, I just had had enough, just couldn't take it anymore. And when she locked herself in the room after a while, I went and just started banging on the door as hard as I could. I would think -- the frustration was so overwhelming, and I started screaming at the closed door.

  • 10:23:42

    SOTOMAYORAre you going to die too? What's going to happen to Junior, my brother and I? Are we going to be left alone forever? And I finally walked away and climbed back into my bed with my book. I'm not much of a crier. But that day, I couldn't read 'cause the tears wouldn't stop. She didn't come out that night.

  • 10:24:06

    SOTOMAYORBut the next morning -- she always went to work before we got up. And the next morning, she wasn't there, and we went to school. But when I got home that night, it's an image I'll never forget. The radio was back on, and my mom opened the door in a black dress with polka dot white. And I just knew she was back. Now...

  • 10:24:38

    REHMWhat courage you had as a young child to be able to express your sadness, your anger, your frustration to your mother. How many children could really have done that?

  • 10:25:01

    SOTOMAYORYou know, I don't know that it took courage. What it took was fear. And you'll read a lot in my book about how fear, which I talk openly about 'cause I have a lot of insecurities. As successful as I am, I'm really driven by the fear of failure, mind you, and having failed enough in my life. OK. Diane's pointing to herself.

  • 10:25:29

    SOTOMAYORI think many of us are. You know, I don't know that I had courage. What I said to her was very much what I was feeling, that somehow I would be left alone, that my brother and I would have to continue fending for ourselves. Look, what I've learned much, much later, almost 50 years later, is that it wasn't depression, and it wasn't guilt.

  • 10:25:53

    SOTOMAYORIt was grief my mother was experiencing. The loss of a marriage that at one time she had valued so greatly, of a man that she had deeply, deeply loved despite the ending -- there had been true romance between them before -- and the fear of raising two kids on hardly no money.

  • 10:26:19

    REHMI wonder how she felt reading that portion of the book and perhaps reflecting back on her own grief.

  • 10:26:33

    SOTOMAYORYou know, we've taken a life journey together, and I described that in the book. As you know from the book, my relationship with her before my dad died was not an ideal one. She, you know, alcoholism, addiction of any kind, obsesses everybody in a family. It becomes the center of everyone's attention, and it becomes the burden of everyone.

  • 10:27:03

    SOTOMAYORAnd my mom was deeply unhappy with my dad's drinking. And how she escaped it was by working at night, so we hardly saw her, my brother and I, during a day. And on the weekends, she would take me to my grandmother's, my brother and I, and I felt dumped there, as much as I loved my grandmother.

  • 10:27:25

    REHMYes.

  • 10:27:26

    SOTOMAYORI felt neglected by my mother. Now, let me be very clear. When I talk about words like neglect or abandonment, I'm talking about the emotions I felt.

  • 10:27:37

    REHMOf course.

  • 10:27:38

    SOTOMAYORBut it wasn't the reality. My mom was working. Without her working, we wouldn't have survived. My dad did two things with his paycheck: He paid the rent, and he bought food on Friday night. He drank every other penny. And so without my mom working, we would not have been able to go to school 'cause mom wanted us in Catholic school.

  • 10:28:02

    SOTOMAYORAnd we wouldn't have been able to buy the things that we needed, like clothing, et cetera. So it wasn't abandonment in the sense that people think about. It was a coldness because of her own inability to deal with a situation she didn't know how to control that I experienced.

  • 10:28:24

    REHMTalk...

  • 10:28:24

    SOTOMAYORAnd it took us years to come to a place where we resolved what I had felt.

  • 10:28:30

    REHMTalk about her decision to send you to parochial school and begin speaking English in the home. What was the critical lesson that actually led to your success at school?

  • 10:28:53

    SOTOMAYOROne has to remember that, even at that age, the neighborhood I was in was a poor neighborhood. And the public schools in the area were not very good schools, perhaps certainly not then and perhaps not even now. And for poor people, the only alternative for what they perceived as a safe haven in which the three Rs would be taught was Catholic school. It was not affordable. But if you worked really hard like my mom did, almost six days week, you could pay for it.

  • 10:29:36

    SOTOMAYORCertainly, you couldn't pay for a private school that wasn't a parochial school. And for mom, she had this sense from her love of reading as a child that the only way you could get ahead in life was by education. And so for our entire childhood, mom worked doubly hard to make sure we received an education that would give us every opportunity in the world.

  • 10:30:06

    REHMSo you started reading Nancy Drew books. You wanted to be a police officer or a detective, but you thought you couldn't make it because you were a diabetic. Talk about how you found out you were diabetic.

  • 10:30:34

    SOTOMAYORThis was the age where you didn't eat before you went to Mass on Sunday mornings. And I went to Mass one Sunday morning, and I fainted. And the nuns encouraged -- I think it's a little more than encouraged. They commanded that my mom take me to a doctor. Mom will tell you that she had seen some of the signs. I was drinking excessively because with out-of-control sugars, you get very, very dry, and you drink a lot of water, or even not water -- whatever you can get your hands on.

  • 10:31:16

    REHMSure, sure.

  • 10:31:17

    SOTOMAYORAnd I was wetting my bed at night. Excess urination is one of the signs of diabetes because the body's...

  • 10:31:26

    REHMAnd this would have been at what age?

  • 10:31:30

    SOTOMAYORI was 7 1/2.

  • 10:31:31

    REHMSeven-and-a-half.

  • 10:31:33

    SOTOMAYORUrination is a way for the body to get rid of that excess sugar.

  • 10:31:37

    REHMOf course.

  • 10:31:39

    SOTOMAYORAnd so if you have a child who is getting a little bit pale, who's drinking a lot of water, who may be wetting the bed after they've stopped for many, many, many years, I would encourage every parent to pay attention. Mom will tell you -- she was a nurse, but there is a desire in a parent sometimes not to see what's right in front of their face because of the fear of learning something you don't want to know.

  • 10:32:12

    SOTOMAYORAnd mom understood, once I had fainted in church, that she couldn't ignore it anymore. In fact, when I was diagnosed, I was sitting in the reception area in this tiny, little hospital my mother worked in, and I could see the doctor's office and her sitting in the chair by the door. And when she started to cry was the first moment I understood something serious was going on. The experience of being diagnosed with a chronic disease is terrifying for parents. And as much as most parents try to hide their fear, they should always remember that their kids have a sixth sense. You know, we...

  • 10:33:03

    REHMAnd you're listening to "The Diane Rehm Show." So, even now, Madam Justice, you are taking insulin on a regular basis.

  • 10:33:18

    SOTOMAYORAnywhere from three to six times a day, every single time I eat, I take a shot.

  • 10:33:26

    REHMEvery time you eat, you take a shot. Wow. And what does that mean for you when perhaps you are out at a dinner party?

  • 10:33:43

    SOTOMAYORYou know, for years and years, a product of what it was like when I was a child, when anybody was sick, you hid it. No one talked about illness when I was a child. It was seen as a deficiency in you.

  • 10:33:58

    SOTOMAYORBut as I grew older and I realized that my diabetes is an integral part of who I am, it's taught me so much about discipline, about moderation, about things that most people should do themselves without diabetes: how to eat sensibly, how to exercise, how to watch yourself when you're sick. You know, I'm careful about my care 'cause I understand that only with care can I live a healthy and full life. But...

  • 10:34:32

    REHMI want -- I'm sorry. I didn't mean to interrupt you. Go ahead and finish that thought.

  • 10:34:40

    SOTOMAYORNo, but what I was saying was that it is all-consuming...

  • 10:34:46

    REHMYes.

  • 10:34:48

    SOTOMAYOR...and it seemed illogical to keep the people who loved me the most from not knowing when I was at risk. And at a certain point, I understood that if I wasn't open with my disease, if I got sick in front of a friend, they wouldn't know what to do. And it happened, actually, at a party...

  • 10:35:12

    REHMWow.

  • 10:35:13

    SOTOMAYOR...where I had almost blacked out, and none of my friends knew that I was having a low sugar reaction. I could have died simply because I wasn't open to my friends. So you asked me a question: What do I do at a dinner party? I no longer hide. I -- now, some may ask me why, and it's not an intended provocation of the people around me. I'm a very, very controlled diabetic. And in a lot of places, they'll sit you at a table. And sometimes in the past, I would take insulin in the bathroom, but they wouldn't serve food fast enough.

  • 10:35:57

    REHMAh.

  • 10:35:58

    SOTOMAYORAnd my sugar levels would lower, and then I'd be having a low sugar reaction, waiting for the food to come. So I've learned to do it at the table.

  • 10:36:05

    REHMSo how much time do you have once the insulin is injected to when you must eat? What's the time interval?

  • 10:36:23

    SOTOMAYORI wish I could tell you that the care is that simple, Diane.

  • 10:36:26

    REHMAh.

  • 10:36:27

    SOTOMAYORThe insulin starts working in 15 minutes after you take it, but how fast you have to eat depends on what your sugar level is when you take the shot. The lower you are, you sometimes don't take it before. You eat first and then take the shot. Sometimes if you're very high, you have to take it earlier so it kicks in and lowers your blood sugar before you start eating. The care of diabetes requires a lot of thought.

  • 10:36:59

    REHMSo what you've got to do is check your insulin level before you take the injection or a number of times a day just to see where it is.

  • 10:37:17

    SOTOMAYORI am constantly monitoring myself inside to see where my sugar is, and I'm taking blood from my fingers to find out what the actual number is.

  • 10:37:30

    REHMSupreme Court Justice Sonia Sotomayor. Her new memoir is titled "My Beloved World." Short break. When we come back, we'll invite you into the conversation.

  • 10:40:05

    REHMAnd for those of you who just tuned in, my guest this morning is Supreme Court Justice Sonia Sotomayor. We're talking about her brand new memoir, "My Beloved World," in which she tells a very compelling and intimate story not only about her childhood years, but her years in college, in law school, her early marriage. And, of course, she stops at a point when she does arrive at the Supreme Court.

  • 10:40:51

    REHMWe're not going to be talking about Supreme Court decisions, either past or some that may come before the court in the future. Rather, we'll concentrate on the justice herself. She is joining us from WBEZ in Chicago. For the first part of the program, we had her on Skype. We're trying to get her back on Skype now. Here's an email from Suzanne. Madam Justice, she says, "Salud, Justice Sotomayor. I, too, experienced great emphasis of hard work and education by my wonderful parents. How did you cope with the cultural differences when you attended Princeton and Yale?"

  • 10:41:58

    SOTOMAYORThat's big part of my book. And I felt when I first got to Princeton like I had landed not on a different planet but in a different universe. You know, for a kid who came from a housing project in the South Bronx, back then one of the poorest and most crime-ridden areas in the nation, to walk into the majestic grounds of Princeton, the gates that you walk into at Princeton face Nassau Hall, this beautiful collegiate building with these huge two tigers sitting on the steps on each side of the building, it was like being transported into a magic land.

  • 10:42:51

    SOTOMAYORBut there's no way that you can feel a part of something like that, so different from so many of my classmates. Almost all of them were better educated than I was. They had traveled and seen more than I had. They knew more than I did. It took me my first year at Princeton in talking with my college roommate -- or a woman who would later become my college roommate, but that year was just becoming a friend.

  • 10:43:24

    SOTOMAYORI was talking to her about my sense of being an alien, and she said, you're like Alice in Wonderland. And I looked at her, and I said, who's that? And in kindness, she didn't look at me in the way that I thought she might today. She's very kind, and she said, it's a wonderful book that you should read. Well, when you come from a household where your mom was so poor and was educated in a different language, that the only book she could ever read were those in the library and it was a very tiny library to start with, she didn't know anything about children's classics.

  • 10:44:14

    SOTOMAYORSo my mom did try to give us -- or she bought for us Highlights, which was this famous children's magazine back then. And she got us an Encyclopedia Britannica. But she didn't know about the classics. So I had to spend my first summer at Princeton reading classics and also buying grammar books to improve my English. As I was buying the grammar books, I spied a series of vocabulary books. And I spent every day of two summers, one summer in particular, reading five or learning five new words every day.

  • 10:44:58

    REHMEvery day.

  • 10:44:59

    SOTOMAYOREvery day.

  • 10:45:00

    REHMGosh.

  • 10:45:01

    SOTOMAYORAnd using them the way the book said. I did that, and my brother followed my example when he got to college three years later. And so it was difficult. You never quite feel like you've caught up to others. I still don't. There are still things I'm learning that others know. But one thing that's given me consolation is the realization that life should be a learning experience.

  • 10:45:37

    REHMAbsolutely.

  • 10:45:39

    SOTOMAYORAnd that it's not that I'm deficient, but that I just have so many more opportunities to enrich myself for a longer period of time. And so being a lifetime student, that's OK.

  • 10:45:54

    REHMAll right. I'm going to open the phones first to Dallas, Texas. Good morning, Antonia.

  • 10:46:03

    ANTONIAGood morning, Diane. I love your show. Thank you so much.

  • 10:46:05

    REHMThank you. Thank you.

  • 10:46:08

    ANTONIAI just wanted -- it's more of a comment as well as to thank Justice Sotomayor. Fifteen years ago, my mother was -- been placed in prison in New York. My father had been placed in prison because of selling drugs, and he's still there today in prison. But you gave my mother a chance and to let her go back home to us. We would've been orphans without her. And you told her never to come back again. And I just wanted to thank you so much for that. I'm college now, a senior, and I wouldn't have been able to have any of this without my mother. And I wanted to thank you for that.

  • 10:46:49

    SOTOMAYORAntonia, I don't want you to tell me your mom's name, but I am glad that it turned around for you and your family.

  • 10:46:58

    REHMJust wonderful, Antonia. Thank you for calling. And let's go to Panama City, Fla. Good morning, Nina.

  • 10:47:09

    NINAGood morning, Diane. I love your show.

  • 10:47:11

    REHMThank you.

  • 10:47:12

    NINAI just want to make a comment to Ms. Sotomayor. I'm born and raised in Africa, and my mom died when I was three. And my father has been an alcoholic and still today. And I was raised by my step-mom. And now I'm here, and I am being called successful by community. I put myself in school, got my bachelor's degree, and I happen to be a nurse. And I also have two kids I constantly chasing after, make sure they got a better life than I have.

  • 10:47:54

    NINAAnd I feel sometimes they think that, you know, I'm neglecting them because I work hard, and whenever they come home I make sure I follow up with their education. I do some fun with them at times, but since, like, they not getting it more and they feel like I'm, you know, the mean mom compared to my husband, which my husband allow them to do anything that they want to do. But I also strike by what you have said earlier. Your success is driven by fear. I do have that feeling at times. I feel like I am successful now, but I still feel I can do more.

  • 10:48:36

    NINABut my, you know, going to what I want is not because I feel like I'm motivated, but I feel like, what if something happened tomorrow to my kids, or what if something to me happened to me today? So I feel like I'm still doing that. And do you still feel like your successful come from your fear? Or do you still feel like you are successful now, you are done with your -- I guess, your, you know, line where you have...

  • 10:49:11

    REHMI don't think we're ever done, Nina. Justice Sotomayor, do you want to respond?

  • 10:49:20

    SOTOMAYORNina, no. I'm still driven by that fear that I will fail, and that's what keeps me going. But you know something? It's that thrive, not just the fear but a persevering. I think that as long as your kids are around and as long as you have a goal in life, you're going to keep going. And it's not so bad, you know that? Because look at how far you've come from where you started.

  • 10:49:52

    SOTOMAYORI'm assuming that you're very grateful to your stepmother for how she helped you. I do mention in the book that I think that every child who succeeds in life has to have someone in their life who gave them confidence in a sense of security.

  • 10:50:10

    REHMCould be a teacher?

  • 10:50:12

    SOTOMAYORIt could be anybody. But it's clear that maybe your kids occasionally resent that you're hard on them, Nina. But, believe me, over time they'll be eternally grateful that you stood by the other side and helped them move forward. Please don't ever regret the choices you have made. It seems you've made very wise ones.

  • 10:50:35

    REHMThanks for calling, Nina. You know, there's been this great discussion, Madam Justice, about women having it all. And, you know, I've always felt that perhaps we as women could have it all but maybe not simultaneously. Maybe we need to do it in stages and maybe the workplace needs to adjust to us rather than the other way around.

  • 10:51:18

    SOTOMAYORWell, you know, from my book -- because I know, Diane, you've read it -- that I talked directly about this issue and think that this conversation about having it all is a little bit ridiculous. We can't have it all every minute of the day. I don't know a working mother who isn't like Nina. She's at work, and she's thinking about what her kids are doing...

  • 10:51:40

    REHMAbsolutely.

  • 10:51:41

    SOTOMAYOR...what's -- what they're missing. If you're with your child doing something, you're thinking about that pile of work on your desk that's not getting done. It is perpetual tension, this perpetual sense of being torn between your two worlds. But countless, countless women do it every day, and countless good fathers do it as well.

  • 10:52:07

    SOTOMAYORYou know, this isn't just relegated to one sex. The idea of being able to do everything at every single moment of the day is a pernicious thought. It's just not useful. I think what you learn is that you sort of -- a little bit of what you were talking about, Diane, how to balance it. There are days you've got to be at work.

  • 10:52:30

    REHMYep.

  • 10:52:31

    SOTOMAYORAnd there are days you have to be at home.

  • 10:52:33

    REHMYep.

  • 10:52:34

    SOTOMAYORAnd despite the conflict, you do what you have to do at the moment that's necessary.

  • 10:52:41

    REHMAll right.

  • 10:52:41

    SOTOMAYORIn the end, it's never going to be easy for any working parent, but it's important for your family. I do have a one very favorite line of mine in this book. When I talk about when we reached equality is when we will never hear someone say that a stay-at-home mom has been not using her potential or that a working mom is not giving up herself to her children. You know, we all make choices. They're important choices. We do what we think is right for ourselves and our family. Equality will come when women can make a choice and not feel guilty about either.

  • 10:53:28

    REHMAnd you're listening to "The Diane Rehm Show." Let's go to Norfolk, Va. Good morning, Henry.

  • 10:53:38

    HENRYGood morning, Diane and Justice Sotomayor. I just want to kind of relay that I think Sonia and I had pretty much the same parents. I was born in Brooklyn, N.Y. And after a certain age, we moved back to the island Puerto Rico. And I went to a one-room school and so on, so forth. But it was very similar situation. But I joined the Navy as an enlisted man, and I finally got selected for officer candidacy.

  • 10:54:12

    HENRYWell, I retired as a Navy captain, and I live here in Virginia. I have a wonderful career and so on and so forth. But what I want to thank Sonia Sotomayor was that even with my success, I never thought that it would be possible for my daughters until she got selected to the Supreme Court. And I want to thank you for giving me that peace of mind.

  • 10:54:42

    REHMHow lovely.

  • 10:54:43

    SOTOMAYORHenry, that -- Henry, that's so sweet. Thank you very, very much.

  • 10:54:48

    REHMJust lovely. Here's an email from Holly, who says, "My 11-year-old daughter Arianna and I saw you speak about your book earlier this month. She was so moved by your directness. She begged to read your book. She is at school today, but one question she wanted to ask you is, why do you think your life and your cousin Nelson's life ended up being so different?"

  • 10:55:26

    SOTOMAYORArianna, as you know from my book, he and I were the closest cousins. We were brother and sister. And we have close to the same life. We certainly came from nearly identical families. He took a different road than I did. I think in part it was because he was a boy, and they let him out to play in the neighborhood. And our neighborhood was not a good one. And because I was girl, I was more protected, and so I wasn't exposed to drugs the way he was.

  • 10:56:00

    SOTOMAYORBut I also think that I had something he didn't, and he is the one who told me this first. He said, Sonia, you have perseverance. You just don't let anything stop you. Because, you see, Nelson was smarter than me. He was absolutely brilliant. But he used to tell me that he would get bored, and he would just give up on doing things.

  • 10:56:33

    SOTOMAYORYou know, I do agree that I don't think it's how smart you are in terms of natural intelligence. I think a lot of success is based on how hard you're willing to try and whether you let failure knock you down or whether you see it as a challenge to get up and keep trying.

  • 10:56:56

    REHMAnd clearly, that's what my guest this morning, Sonia Sotomayor, associate justice on the Supreme Court, has done. She has kept on trying, and you can read how hard she worked in her new memoir "My Beloved World." Someday, Madam Justice, I hope to meet you in person and have you sign this book. Thank you for joining us.

  • 10:57:35

    SOTOMAYORThank you, Diane.

  • 10:57:36

    REHMA real pleasure. Thanks for listening, all. I'm Diane Rehm.

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